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“Me Time”

January 24, 2011

This weekend I had an epiphany.

I don’t know if it’s my rather drastic change in diet and exercise habits, winter doldrums, or just being bi-polar but I have not been a very happy person lately. I have been rather difficult to live with, to say the least.

I was having a conversation with The Cousin/Sister and we were talking about the barn and I burst out crying. I hated being out of the loop there and having almost no time to ride. It makes it very hard to be satisfied with my day job when it leaves me no time to ride.

Saturday morning I taught a couple of fantastic lessons. One of the fastest ways to boost my mood is to share in the successes of my students. Then I got on Tobiano because we are hunting in two weeks. I desperately need time in the saddle to prepare for the insanity that is chasing hounds on horseback! We had a perfectly lovely ride, in perfectly warm and sunny weather. Ahhhhh.

I had a fair amount of time before my next engagement so I took my time cleaning stalls. Then, as I was sweeping, I started thinking…

I often feel so resentful of my responsibilities – that they leave me with no “me time”. I rush through everything I have to do so that I can stake my claim to every second of free time for myself. Yet I am unfulfilled. I don’t ever feel like I’ve had enough “me time”.

One thing I realized I was doing was running home as soon as I was done teaching on Saturdays. This Saturday I hung around and took my time. And there while I was sweeping I realized that THIS is my “me time”.

Riding is what makes me, Me. Without it I am a shadow of myself.*

*and this is probably a revelation to no one but me

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7 comments

  1. I am happy to help do anything so that you can have more Em time. I love you so much and want you to be happy!!!


    • It is good to have those in our lives who want us to be happy


    • You’re the best and I love you so very much!


  2. I suffer from the not enough “me” time. When I am cycling and in the midst of a mental breakdown all I want to do is just be by myself. I want to play my video games and write. This is all I want to do yet I have responsibilities of being a father and husband and sometimes I feel resentful, and in feeling resentful I feel guilty for feeling the way that I do. Be strong and fight through your cycle. It is tough to fight through a cycle but it is in being strong that we are able to survive. Take the time to ride it will help your mental state


    • Thanks! 🙂


  3. Do what makes YOU happy once in a while. You give and give and give and give…

    God dammit…give to YOURSELF once and a while!

    The maid of honor has spoken……*stomps foot*

    I love you.

    Cousin/Sister 🙂


  4. LOVE this photo…..xx



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